This semester has been a semester of decision making of epic proportions. As I near my graduation date, the questions needing answers rises with a nice, graphable slope for all of you math people out there, with your graphs and such.
Honestly, the whole thing is pissing me off. I am in no state to make a capable decision about things that have such long term effects (affects?). People hate me for it, get mad at me, criticise me, and pity me for it. I even get angry about it. I hate it. I hate how I am about it. I feel silly, stomping my foot like a five year old because I have the liberty of choice in my life. Boo Hoo. At least I have the freedom to make decisions. Far reaching ones that could bring about THE END OF IT ALL if I don't choose right.
Pending Questions that are DRIVING ME INSANE (Some already have obvious answers, but that won't stop me from beating them to death):
1. Stay here or move back home?
2. Get a full time job here or back home? (obviously linked to #1)
3. Stay at my current job or find a new one?
4. Medicine?
5. Get a job somewhere completely different?
6. Continue trying to get into vet school or give up?
7. Keep my new hair cut or grow it out again (seriously, do I look like a dude now?)
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I can keep going over every possible scenario in my head over and over again hoping to find the absolute truth that is in the question, or just make a fricken decision and if it does not work out know I am still young and my life won't be over. I mean seriously, one scenario itching at the back of my skull has a zombie apocalypse, in which case living at home would be the best answer, cause then I would not have to travel across state to save my family. (Although my little sister would be a formidable zombie eliminator in my opinion). As silly as it sounds, it has some root in truth. I mean, what if there was some disaster, natural or man made? Obviously I would want to be with my family. Should I base a life changing decision on what could or could not happen? No, I guess. But the severity of how I feel about such things depends on my anxiety level. Right now, it should not. . .obviously. But on a severely stressful day A DISASTER IS INEVITABLE AND I SHOULD CONSIDER THIS IN MY DECISION MAKING. God, I am such a lost cause.
So, congrats on reaching the bottom of this incredibly random post. I hope you enjoyed. Stick around and you'll see me on a really stressful day and get some interesting/life changing post I am sure. More later.
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